My Virgin Trip to KL
My first trip to the capital of Malaysia with Papa and of cuz umm his GF and GF’s daughter, let’s call them Jean and Laura. I expected it to be quite alright considering the fact that it is a city after all, so expected something similar to SG. Big malls, Big hotels, many “business” people trying to coax you to buy their stuff etc. Of course, expected a certain level of cor***tion. ok enough about that, now about the real trip.
Started off quite screwed up cause on the morning of the trip itself we did not actually GET the bus tickets though we THOUGHT we booked it. Nothing was given except the receipt and we were told that there were no seats. yada yada, cut the long story short, papa and jean had a big bust up over the phone deciding how to settle the situation which wasted quite a lot of time , it was already 9+, bus was suppose to leave at 1030. better still, we were told that they were still packing. power. Anyways, papa and i decided to ride down to the tour agency (where the bus was also) and knock on their doors and demand a ticket. The person in charge was there, non of the colleagues were, we saw how busy she was, no wonder no time to pick up the phone. Thankfully and luckily there were seats (because an extra bus left during tt day) and Jean and Laura decided to come (they did not want to come because they thought calling the tour agency would solve the problem, the line was busy, stupid stuff). Off we were to KL. Biggest cock up ever before a trip.
Shall just comment on the main things that caught my attention. The city is more polluted than SG. many of the buildings are obviously old but most of them are very interesting, the design and architecture, can guess which culture or race actually designed it. their public transport (i mean train and buses) is no where to be found or are as rare as diamonds. the food oh glorious food was excellent. will elaborate on what i had later. The people, quite friendly i would say, they lead simple lives but all seemed quite ok with it. The chinese spoke chinese or dialect (mainly cantonese), malay spoke malay, indian spoke tamil and malay, where has the english gone… i wonder sometimes… We got around KL by taxi that did not charge the proper meter rate but instead we had to put in the effort to bargain and bargain for a price to pay. Prices like 20 ringgit to Sunway Lagoon and 10 ringgit or so just to get around the city area. Oh btw, the traffic is horrendous, i mean IS because i bet they are having a damn jam over there now also. Blady road planning was rubbish. I can imagine the number of hours lost for productivity. My gang was staying in the Chinatown area, in a hotel called the Swiss Inn. 3 star, reasonable, but i would have gone for something cheaper. S$20 per night per person was not worth it for a place where you put ur stuff and just sleep in. I am quite thrifty as my father is when it comes to accommodation. Oh well, we booked it w/o checking out the rates and my father tio stun when he thought he paid and it was included in the travel package when he didn’t, guess it was carelessness. So that’s that.
Places of interests. 6 days, we went various places, 1 place each day, spending quality time in each place. Berjaya Times Square, Cameron Highlands, Sunway Lagoon, Petronas Twin Towers and KLCC shopping centre. Berjaya was such a huge shopping mall, 10 stories and a few blocks. Had fun in the indoor theme park although did not go for the hiong rides such as the rollar coaster. I was hum ji and the queue was fking long, so no point waiting. Cameron Highlands was scary yet peaceful. The traveling time was like 4 to 5 hrs in total by car from KL to the top of Cameron. My father drove, he was the only one who had the license after all. What i love about the mountain was that there was Durians on the side of the road. My father stopped immediately and went to it like a bee goes for honey (we went bee farm also), we bought 4 durians, ate one and had 3 in the car. You can imagine the immense fragrance of the durians perfuming the air in the car. was literally drunk on durian on my trip there. The tea plantation was something out of the ordinary. The effort needed to plant tea on mountains, not flat land but MOUNTAINS, not 1 but MANY MOUNTAINS, amazing, the air smelt like the scent of tea also. so that’s where BOH tea comes from. The air in Cameron was the freshest natural fucking air i smelt in my whole life. You could just get an orgasm by sniffing it, oooh i so loved it. The ride down the mountain was scary, no lights, my father had to rely on his skills and follow the leading cars in front. We got back safely thankfully. My father was exhausted though. Sunway Lagoon was huge, 3 theme parks, actually 1 small zoo, we covered a little of the main theme park and went to the wet theme park late, it was raining, din really enjoy much. KLCC was nice, another huge shopping centre, first time seeing the Petronas twin towers that is most renowned and one of the prides of M’sia. So that’s that for the places of interest.
Nth much to blog about. Let the pictures speak for themselves.
Orgasmic Air
Look at my lovely face
Our lovely faces
At the peak!
Pride of malaysia and a kuku boy’s face
Muah Chee! (no bye) Different flavours. yummy!
I got sick eating these. during that particular time. we couldn’t bring our 68 ringgit durian back to SG. so messed up. had to wallop the whole thing before we boarded the bus. one of the best durians ever. however, it got me sick for the first time in the year. Fuck. right at the end of the year somemore. fuck. anyway that’s over and i recovered within two days. shall stay away from durians for a while now.
Will definitely go back to Msia again, other areas, especially for the food. Fucking wonderful!
With Love, enjoyment and fun,
Kelvin
P.S. Sorry Tricia for PSing.
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Misdirection
Just watched Swordfish on channel 5, i shan’t tell the whole story, u wanna know about it, go watch it. It’s kinda action packed and thrilling with a straightforward twist at the end. Halle Berry was hot, John Travolta looked cool as always and Hugh Grant is just plain suave. Besides all the suspense and action, i only learnt 1 thing from the whole movie that applied to life. The main message was “misdirection could sometimes be the greatest trick and advantage too, things aren’t what they seem to be with misdirection”. Something like that. It was said by John Travolta to Hugh Grant when they were like in trouble and John was killing the “bad” guys. It was a meaningful message that contributed to the twist at the end whereby John and Halle Berry escaped though the FBI and what not thought they were all dead because they had been “killed”.
The other movie i watched this week was Warlords. Although Kenny said it wasn’t that nice, i have to disagree. It really depends what you look for in a movie. Is it the plot or storyline? Is it the acting? Is it the actors themselves? Could it be the director? What i usually look for is a good storyline and the acting of the actors, especially the main actors. The storyline for the meaning of the whole show which we could learn from and noticing the great acting to appreciate art in the form of movies. For this particular movie, there were 3 main points: loyalty, strategy and betrayal. Loyalty in the form of the brotherhood sworn between the main characters Jet Li, Andy Lau and the Japanese-Taiwanese fella. They sworn to protect one another during war and at times when they are most vulnerable when they took a Blood Oath (killing someone outside the village as proof of their loyalty to one another, brutal but true). They sworn to kill whoever harms or kills their brother, which is themselves. Sounded simple enough, and who would have known, it complicated matters later on. This definitely highlights and demands strong loyalty between them. They were Generals after all, leading the “shan” army to conquer provinces, much trust has to be built in their own leadership team. This had heightened the morale of the army and also they themselves, so they went on winning loads of wars. Most of the warring decisions were made by our dear friend General Pang who was portrayed by Jet Li. He had made the most cruel decisions during the wars but taught his army how to win and made sure they had won. The massacre of 4000 soldiers after they took over Suzhou had tested the trust and loyalty between him and Andy Lau, as it was a tough decision that defied what Jet Li had actually believed in but had not practised during that situation (he believed in not harming the weak or those who had nothing such as the poor and innocent). It was such a strategy that had won him the next war but also tested the trust between the brotherhood of 3. Then came betrayal, the climax of the movie i would say, which was near the ending of the movie. Jet Li betrayed Andy Lau and got him assassinated, The jap-taiwan guy wanted to kill Jet Li because of his betrayal and there was political betrayal by the royalty and whoever was at the top of the hierarchy, the dowager and what nots. So in the end, all the 3 main characters died. wth. While there was glory, there was also a force that denied the glory and in the end lead to tragedy. How sad for them, but sometimes being to clever for the sake of themselves did not allow them to be the best in the end but lead to disaster. There was misdirection all over the place which helped and troubled the generals, bringing them to glory and afflicting them with pain in the end. The strategies misdirected the enemies which lead to their defeat while the political hierarchy misdirected the 3 generals leading to their own betrayal and death. Well, that sums it up, not too deep but enough to think about.
I would associate misdirection with trickery and deceit which helps one to achieve their goals. To misdirect is to point someone to another direction and convince them enough that it is the right direction to go, although it might not be. It could also mean making people believe the fake and not the truth, unreal and not the real, could amounting to lying many times. I got blur many times and “misdirected” myself into something that’s not, which lead to even more work. I have been misdirected away from the truth by believing others who are not true friends, falling into their traps with my naivety. But that’s that, now i am more aware and sure. In Business, misdirecting competitors could lead to boost in sales but we ought to consider the long term implications as well. Be careful about who you misdirect. All in all, misdirection will step on the toes of certain individuals or organisations that will in turn return the “favour” at some point in time which could lead to your downfall or even death but also allows you to gain the advantage needed sometimes to beat others and achieve what you want. Sounds evil at times, but helpful at others. What you want to do with misdirection, you decide. Well, it is something i learnt to be careful about, especially about others.
“Only a fool tests the water with both feet”
With love and thanks,
Kelvin =)!
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Irregularities
The above title seems kinda negative at first, but i assure you, it did make me move past certain hurdles. Let’s explore my wonderful week. First up, it was the common tests. Worried i was as i did not study much beforehand, certain expectations had to be met, though set by myself, realised i was kinda too concerned about results. What i truly wanted was just to achieve, i like that feeling. It i did start on my accounting and felt confident about it, no worries. Marketing was a breeze thanks to going for Josh Boot Camp (JBC), really discovered my weakness, my studying style. Gotta go read up on accelerated learning and practise different ways, find which is suitable and continue to practise it. The rest of the papers, don’t wanna talk about it, seemed ok, we shall see the results anyways, important as it may be, i had fun studying (as if i actually did) no doubt, kinda weird how i did it too. For the past 5 days, my sleeping time was truly very irregular. I slept at 11 or 12, woke up at 1or 2, study till 3 or 4, sleep again, wake up, study again sleep again, wake and go to school. that sort of confusing pattern for about 2 or 3 of those days, felt like shit at times, but got through it anyways. Somehow, i feel that i require less sleep after doing that for the past few days. on average i slept about 6 hours, cut down from 8, so i guess, somehow my body clock changed as well. that’s great, get to do more things. next is exercise. really thankful for Suhartono who taught me the Lymph exercise, gonna practise it at least 3 times a week to get my body into healthy state, a detoxified state, who knows, i might become from a bamboo to a pencil. ok lame. enough about the CTs, it is over and i am glad to announce that, move on to projects and exams, now i am sure looking forward to that 
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Besides sleep being irregular, so has the sexy people around me. It seems that from the regular friends who come to the clubhouse, there is a sudden influx of irregulars. Not in size or anything for that matter, just that they are new. I definitely would love more people in the clubhouse to liven it up and bring up the entertainment mood. Grateful that people feel that them like to hangout in the clubhouse. Expecting to see more of them anyways. Observed that people who play with kids are quite violent also . then again, with my sick and twisted nature, i shall influence them to be horny, whhahahaha! (don’t kill me next time u see me T.T)
My father has been sleeping irregularly also, he says he has high blood. I urged him time and again to eat less oily, fatty, unhealthy food such as te bah, bak kut teh and what not. What does he actually do? otherwise, especially not resisting the pork lard. yux. haha but i keep quiet after telling him not to eat, din take action and throw it away, no need ba, his choice lor. I just kept on saying, “pa, you wanna die early ah?” trying my best to wake him up. Hmm really hope he wakes up before any disaster upon his body happens. He used to run marathons, now he is runs eating marathons. Seriously, i urge all to eat healthily, especially our generation if we really want to live longer, fish and veg, good combi =).
Ok, time to talk about more serious and practical stuff.
For Leo Club. Things have not been upbeat or exciting, especially about projects and leading. I wanna keep it short and sweet. Things are not as simple as they may seem, but sometimes, doing the easy things, might make the simple things complicated. Leading seriously has been quite a uphill task, then again, who said it was easy anyway? I was willing to take up the challenge, willing to put in my best, but it does seemed as though it is not enough. I feel quite inadequate sometimes, but i know that i can do it. what exactly is it? well there are actually a lot of “its”. “It” could stand for people, projects, happenings, relationships, leading, emotions, mindsets, characters etc etc. I can do “it” means that i can handle them. arhh irregular.
Shall end.
With Love,
Kelvin
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Time to Do My Best!
The last post was kinda arrogant. lol sorry about that, just felt like i needed a confidence boost of some kind.
Had econs test yesterday. I will say i did not put in my very best and studied kinda last minute, turns out i left after the paper finished, not a very confident Kelvin. Hopefully able to get at least 35/50 though. There was no hunger.
Well, after that paper, i feel more motivated, more hungry to do better for the rest. So for the next few days, i am gonna break the slacking habit and do my very best. I don’t worry at all as i know i can do it. The only uphill task is getting myself down to studying. I have done it before and now i believe and can do so again. Let’s get the studying mode going on! Put in my best!
With Love,
Kelvin
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It’s been a long time coming..
SJIMB Frozen Throne
SJIMB Horn Section from years 2004 batch to present
SJIMB 2005 Batch Reunites
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SJIMB 50th Anniversary Investiture and Company Mess Dinner
Oh well, it has really been a long time coming for SJIMB. Already 50 glorious years and still moving strong. Would like to congratulate the batch who passed out recently. Ian’s and Zhibin’s Batch who did a great job for their year in term. I know it was not easy for you all, especially as the leaders of the band, undeniable pressure. Still, things went on and you guys did your best for the band, continuing its legacy for years to come, thanks for being a bandsmen for others and being there for band. You guys are sure fine Josephians, true ones in fact. I was also really very happy that i got to spend time with my batchmates who had time after their A levels to come for this wonderful and memorable night. Time spent to catch up with one another. Guess we are at the stage of our lives where nothing is really that interesting yet huh.. especially when all of you are going army, for 2 years, my time to come later also. haiz. Glad that people like Wei Yang managed to return to SG to spend the day with us also. Yea we had laughter and happiness for that night. the 30$ dinner sure wasn’t worth it but hack it, the time we had was invaluable and is definitely worth to be cherished for the rest of our lives. To those who are going for army, i wish you all the best. To my juniors, go on and further your studies, make the right choices yea, i am sure you all will also, let’s all excel in life!
Hmm, i feel pretty stressed up. Many things have not yet been done, going to get done and some other things are left to be undone. For eg, tutorials, i have weeks to catch up with. Gonna do all especially for accounting which needs practise. My CT’s is in a week and a half from now, i seriously need to keep my head moving, exercise those brains, bring myself back to optimal level of doing work and digesting and understanding what i have learnt over the course of the past few weeks. I believe and remember the times i did my best and achieved the results i wanted, that gave me even more faith and confidence to do so, shall recollect those feelings and emotions and project that in the present to be a better person and student. I love that feeling of achievement, gonna put in my best effort to get it.
Digress a bit. On Monday, Jackson, Hong Yi and I went to the airport to meet and greet the East Malaysian Leos who were en route to Japan. They were in transit in Changi Airport, waiting for their next flight for close to 8 hrs if i am right. We rushed there from school on the MRT, long ride, had to stand, leg pain, nvm. We only got the chance to meet them like after 2 hrs after we reached the airport, which was like 9pm, even though we reached there like close to 7pm. That was because of some miscommunication and someone who did not pick up the phone (roar.. roarr.. meow). Well at least our trip wasn’t wasted. We got to meet them! there were about 21 of them. mostly girls, but a healthy mix of guys also. their age ranges fro 15 to 20+ years old, from secondary school to university. They all came from east Msia though, it’s quite a huge area i just realised. Surprisingly, their English was pretty good, i was worried before that i had to speak chinese with them, wanted to in fact, t make them feel at home. But since they spoke english, we continued to. All of them welcomed us more than we welcomed them, so funny. 3 of us were like popular figures, photo taking was a rampant action during the period of time we met. I had to hold like 5 cameras to help them take a group photo. took photos with all the nice girls too =). I was pretty embarrassed that everyone had name cards, i collected from all of them so i had like a nice deck of cards also. Hope to add and chat with them in the future, get to know them better too. Too bad, i cannot meet them when they arrive in SG for the next transit again during the 26th of Dec (spent 1 mth in Japan, so lucky…). Hopefully Jackson will bring more people to meet them next time, bet he will get the chance to take them around also. well, that’s tt.
Gonna hold meeting for Perseverance house tomorrow, hope everything goes well. I realized i work very well with Tricia, we have affinity with each other i guess. We will ensure that things will go smoothly for the club on our part. the rest of it.. hmm we shall see… for now.. i gotta focus on CT’s and projects, but i will spend time reorganizing for the future of the club, can’t seem to rely on most people some times.. haiz…
I have a strong feeling and yearning to go overseas, gotta read up on Shanghai especially… Wanna truly learn the mechanics of business, experience it… Feel like i want to do FnB and hotels also, well it depends.. see which company i get to go to.. marketing still my top choice of course.
I enjoy the jokes we all have each day in my school, happy jokes and not discriminatory. We are definitely a bunch of amusing and creative people! Thanks you all for the infectious humour. Cheers!
A smile starts on the lips, A grin spreads to the eyes, A chuckle comes from the belly; But a good laugh bursts forth from the soul, Overflows, and bubbles all around.
Carolyn Birmingham
With love,
Kelvin
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Kelvin Koh Tong Weng’s Full Personality Profile Report
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| Extraversion | |
| Openness To Experience | |
| Agreeableness | |
| Conscientiousness |
You do not feel nervous in social situations, and have a good impression of what others think of you, however you feel strong cravings and urges that you have difficulty resisting. You tend to prefer short-term pleasures and rewards over long-term consequences. You like crowds but sometimes feel overwhelmed by them. Sometimes you feel like you need some privacy and time for yourself. You like the security of tradition, but sometimes have a desire to bend the rules and challenge conventional thinking. You see no need for pretense or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank and sincere. People find it relatively easy to relate to you, however you feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people. You take your time when making decisions and will deliberate on all the possible consequences and alternatives.
This report compares you to other men who are 20 or younger in Singapore. It analyses you based on each of the five broad personality domains of the Five-Factor Model (Goldberg, L R. 1999), and the six sub domains at each level.
Neuroticism
| Overall Score |
13 |
| Anxiety |
17 |
| Anger |
20 |
| Depression |
4 |
| Self-Consciousness |
3 |
| Immoderation |
74 |
| Vulnerability |
53 |
You are a calm person who is considered almost fearless by some. You rarely get angry and it takes a lot to make you angry. You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind. You do not feel nervous in social situations, and have a good impression of what others think of you. You feel strong cravings and urges that you have difficulty resisting. You tend to prefer short-term pleasures and rewards over long-term consequences. High levels of stress can lead to you feeling panic or confusion, but usually you cope with day to day pressures.
Extraversion
| Overall Score | 86 |
| Friendliness |
86 |
| Gregariousness |
48 |
| Assertiveness |
84 |
| Activity Level |
92 |
| Excitement-Seeking |
63 |
| Cheerfulness |
82 |
You genuinely like other people and openly demonstrate positive feelings toward others. You make friends quickly and it is easy for you to form close, intimate relationships. You like crowds but sometimes feel overwhelmed by them. Sometimes you feel like you need some privacy and time for yourself. You like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. You are usually the leader in group activites. You lead a fast-paced and busy life. You move about quickly, energetically, and vigorously and are involved in many activities. You enjoy some excitment and risk taking in your life. You experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy.
Openness To Experience
| Overall Score | 77 |
| Imagination |
65 |
| Artistic Interests |
63 |
| Emotionality |
65 |
| Adventurousness |
96 |
| Intellect |
55 |
| Liberalism |
51 |
You are a moderately imaginative person who enjoys a good balance between the real world and fantasy. You are reasonably interested in the arts but are not totally absorbed by them. Generally you are not considered to be an emotional person, however you are aware of and in touch with your emotions. You are eager to try new activities, travel to foreign lands, and experience different things. You find familiarity and routine boring, and will take a new route home just because it is different. You enjoy a certain amount of debate or intellectual thought, but sometimes get bored with too much. You like the security of tradition, but sometimes have a desire to bend the rules and challenge conventional thinking.
Agreeableness
| Overall Score | 81 |
| Trust |
90 |
| Morality |
94 |
| Altruism |
94 |
| Cooperation |
43 |
| Modesty |
32 |
| Sympathy |
71 |
You naturally assume that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. You see no need for pretense or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank and sincere. People find it relatively easy to relate to you. You find helping other people genuinely rewarding and are generally willing to assist those who are in need. You find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice. You do not enjoy confrontation, but you will stand up for yourself or push your point if you feel it is important. You feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people. You are tenderhearted and compassionate, feeling the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity.
Conscientiousness
| Overall Score | 86 |
| Self-Efficacy |
59 |
| Orderliness |
59 |
| Dutifulness |
81 |
| Achievement-Striving |
72 |
| Self-Discipline |
86 |
| Cautiousness |
93 |
You are moderately confident that you can achieve the goals you set yourself. You are a reasonably organized person and like to have a certain amount of routine in your life. You have a strong sense of duty and obligation, and feel a moral obligation to do the right thing. You strive hard to achieve excellence. Your drive to be recognized as successful keeps you on track toward your lofty goals. You often have a strong sense of direction in life, but may sometimes be too single-minded and obsessed with your work. You have strong will-power and are able to overcome your reluctance to begin tasks. You are able to stay on track despite distractions. You take your time when making decisions and will deliberate on all the possible consequences and alternatives.
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As of what my other friends think also, the personality test is pretty much true about myself. read if you are interested to know me even better. woot. here’s the link to take the test =). Ripped it off Tricia’s Website btw, she recommended … http://www.pulseware.com.au/site_pi.asp?p=wpa-13659&ur=603584xbd8F0b
A lot has been on my mind, a lot has been done too.
Let’s start with the Leo Camp. Been pissed right from the start of planning up till the camp itself. the reasons, plentiful, to lazy to name the least. Glad that i am capable to handle my part though, think i did well. I am not angry or frustrated, mainly disappointed about certain people. It’s not that they lack anything, it’s just that they do not show and do their best. It’s a serious issue of attitude and discipline. I have only known of bad attitude, nvr really felt the effects of it (rarely). During the whole process of planning till executing, i thought about many things, too preoccupied with many till i blurred out many others. After thinking about those that were blurred out, i felt very responsible for them in one way or another. It’s just part of me, i want everything to be nice and proper, at least the best my abilities can help with. If i din do it, i feel that i did not put in my best. So sometimes, there’s this form of regret, mild but disturbing to my mind sometimes. I did not really be as assertive as i want to be, i was simply too soft. With that said, i also fear things like offending people, though most of the time i try to be polite as possible. I should just whack! sometimes, as ugly as it may sound, it’s true and important… Anyway it’s all over, i’ve seen who is willing and able to work for the club… from their hearts… Thanks to all those who helped out.. especially those in the committee, Tricia, Kenny, Jackson, Soo Hoon, Fabian, Hong Yi.. whoever else i deliberately forgot to mention also… Looking forward to future events.. will be working hard on them =).
Happy Birthday to Tricia.. Hope you like the book. chose it cause it suites you well =).
This week i had to pon IEF lecture AND tutorial. Not the best thing to do, especially with KPT as our teacher. She’s nice but scary sometimes. Anyway we were truthful and our dear friend Josh helped conveyed the reason to her. We were actually pretty stressed out by our Global Cities project. 3 people in the group, only Kenny and I were doing the work. We underestimated very badly how long it would take us to finish the whole project. We did finish the initial research but it was still not enough. Delayed by the previous week (Leo Camp was the bomb.. yea right..). Luckily we were able to act quick and resolve the need to complete the 2000 word report. oh oh! we realised we included too many things, Paris is really strong, a lot to talk about, Seoul lacked many things that Paris had, we had to abandon some information, cheat with others. End up with a 4200 word report, sweet stuff isn’t it. We did try our best though, hope we can get an A! But i feel that we could have done better by adding more depth into the report. Oh, the Powerpoint we chionged the night before the presentation, sloggers of the night unite. slogged it out and managed to do up a decent ppt. nicer as compared to some other groups. The presentation was great i guess. 7 groups, 3 hrs or so. some people present for like 10 mins even. chiobus of the class unite and did well, though their slides were very brief… there was talk about milan and gays and lesbian, cities in the west being liberal and yadayada.. interesting, learnt a lot within that time from all the hardwork from the groups. Glad it’s Over, wasn’t that bad of an IS module after all. Next up, intercultural communications, heard it’s boring.. hope it’s not.. we shall see.
Oh btw, i think my grandma might be going MAD, Crazy, KooKoo, what ever u call it. yea like so out of the line.. She hates my dad to the core or something, not intentional, just habitual, cannot seem to let go and forgive certain unrefined or incongruent behaviour that my dad usually portrays in front of her. For example, not locking the gate when he comes home, not turning off the light, turning on the light in the day, brining his gf home.. etc etc… she thinks everything he does is a sin and feels that he’s a ghost and cursed. translating directly from cantonese. Anyway what annoys me is that when my dad comes home in the morning, he has to slp (tired after a long night at work)… she just wants to instigate him for no reason, verbally of course, our family is anti-violence, we don’t own guns or throw punches, we just exchange curses like water flowing out from the tap, so clear. and she nags the same damn fucking few lines for god knows how many hours. My father is cool, he just goes to slp and snore. dreaming away. sometimes, he gets awakened by an occasional outburst of my grandma, she likes to throw water, so takes a pail and throws some water on his face, then continues cursing and instigating him. wonderful voice, astounding skill. Crazy Grandma. many other damn examples. Pm me if you wish to discuss. How to Handle a grandmother… when i was younger, i used to shout at her, din really know how to control my emotions, was emo last time. nowadays, i just ignore her, feel like shit for a moment, just think that i shld forgive her and i do, and move on with the day. She doesn’t understand how to control her self, neither does she understand the meaning of forgiveness. Old and conventional, maybe bad past event, who knows. whatever it is, she lacks all the compassion sometimes. Anyway, enough about that, hope that things will get better, only know that it will get worse, brain degeneration… sux to be old..
Ahh.. enough cock for the week. So many books to read, tutorials to catch up with and leo stuff to start with.. friends to go out with…let’s all enjoy life, do what we love, love what we do, love those we do things with, all unconditionally… looking forward to Company Mess for SJIMB… the next IEF tutorials, and happenings in leo club…May you all have a nice weekend and a good week ahead.
The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, nor touched… but are felt by the heart.
– Helen Keller
With Love,
Kelvin!
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Things have changed…
I have been pondering about many things over the weekend. From Leo club to Schoolwork to OIAP to games. Seems like i really have a lot to do with very little time. I can’t believe i am blogging at 2 am because i was slping only 3 hours ago. Something made me get up, wash up, brush up and get the day going. It is a brand new day again. Tuesday. And like the lists on Tricia’s Blog, i do have my own too. Tricia quite and organised person eh. =). Anyways, i think i have a list as long as hers too or maybe even longer especially if you factor in the hmwrk and tutorials to be done. With so many things to be done, so little time, i wonder, what is the best use of my time these days? Over the weekend, i have been playing, relaxing more than getting work done, being productive. I do not regret anything, because i have enjoyed my days. However, i know that in order to progress and get myself back to the level of excellence and productivity, i have to change right this instant. Snapping out of it.
Yesterday (which is not so long ago) is a nice day. I made a few jokes, our dear joker in lch Suhartono made even more jokes (it is his habit you see), Josh seemed so tired (getting back to his old ways of not slping), Kenny as usual come late leave early (but at least he helped Tricia, very nice of him to do so), Fabian kinda disappeared (hope he’s fine), Daryl went for dinner with us (Josh and I), we were talking about games, i din hear a word or two throughout the dinner from Daryl, only he can say why. Well, that’s how interesting yesterday was. The best part is, i got a whole pile of work to complete. 500 word essay, CV, IEF read up, IS compilation of information, Recruitment SMS blah blah. ahha i feel tired even by looking at it. guess i should be off doing them instead, start off with the easiest and gain momentum. Hopefully IEF later will be a blast (add reading about Tariffs to the list of things to be done by tml).
I am quite worried about the camp. There is this sense of insecurity in me that certain things that could have been done, has not been done. I am not superman and cannot do everything by myself. But certain people who have the responsibilities to be carried out, did not carry them out and leave others to carry them out for them. How psyche is that. It shows how much you value the club seriously. Whatever i do in Leo Club, i do it for others, not for myself. I take pride and delight in doing so because that’s my motivation and my fulfillment. I do grumble sometimes about the many things i have to handle, but i do handle them. So do the others who are dedicated. I don’t want to mention names here because it might be offensive to some, but i am sure in every person’s own clear conscience, you know what you have done or not done for the club. Ok let’s not harp on such unsatisfactory thoughts. I would like to pay tribute to those who have put in their best foot forward and the effort that is ever so much. Tricia, Terry and Kenny for doing more than they should have (doing far more than the scope of their roles for the camp), and Jack Jack for being so concern about things and trying his best to ties up some loose ends for the camp.
Speaking of which, today i realized that i cannot read people that well yet. I could not even identify that Jackson was a perfectionist. I realized that my thoughts and ideas about him were scrambled and distorted. This is because of my perception of his personality and character set. I have seen the way he does things, it did not seem like they were perfect (wrong perception), but actually when he is working on things, he wants them to be perfect (now i took a step backwards and thought of it, it was actually true). Maybe because i am quite a perfectionist also. The things he did not complete, i try to help complete sometimes (for Leo), then i feel that, y couldn’t he have completed it, so it distorted the fact that actually he wanted to, but maybe he was focusing on other things (as random as he always is). ah yea… something like that…
Ok, That’s all for today. Aim for this week is to complete IS assignment, Start on OM project, Have a fun weekend at camp!
Cheers!
We also deem those happy, who from the experience of life, have learned to bear its ills and without descanting on their weight.
Junvenal
Thanks with Love,
Kelvin
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Thinking things through…
After all i have done, attained, achieved… it hasn’t really been a lot. What i am talking about is the honours/achievements/awards. You see, i gotta write my CV (Curriculum Vitae) and list out the tangible achievements, academic awards and you know what else. It is for my OIAP application. Gotta finish it ASAP. Ok, even from Primary school, i felt that i have not learnt enough. In fact, i did attempt to learn but did not go to the highest level or even complete some things. I remembered i was going to learn music and how to play the organ, did not like it so i stopped after very few sessions, it was at yamaha at kallang, think i was around like 5 years old or younger. A brat at that time. I wanted to learn the Violin very much, did not manage to, not because i din want to, but my father din seem to put me into a violin class. If i remember correctly, it could have been because he was too busy or went overseas, so i wasn’t enrolled. Maybe that could also have caused me to fear asking my father for anything regarding money, from books to attending courses etc. My father is really a miser, not those who don’t want to spend money or anything. He’s one that is wealthy, penny wise, pound foolish type of guy. When money has to be spend on impt things like insurance, education, even changing the motorbike tires etc, he doesn’t want to spend. I hated that, feared that, so din really ask him much for money, guess i knew that even at the age of 5 years old. Anyways, most of the time i was with my grandma, she isn’t exactly the educated sort and doesn’t believe very much in “modern learning” or going to school and learn “anything and everything”. So in the end, i wasn’t enrolled in any music class. gotta ask my father y again. ARGH. one of my many regrets. Not gonna blame my father or anything, but i was young and din know much, well now i know and accepted. But seriously, he wasn’t a good parent in that area, then again, no one is perfect, at least i gotten all the intangible love from him i could that, tt’s y our trust with each other matured and is everlasting. Also, I did attempt to learn martial arts and it was Aikido. Did get up till Blue Belt, 1 or 2 more exams and cld have gotten black belt, i was a little older then, in primary school already. Din have much recollection about that also. Can’t seem to remember much about my childhood, maybe cause i had low self esteem and loneliness many times =(, my father was overseas most of the time, even in school i was a quiet boy. I was thinking about Aikido because today i was taking out my achievement certs (as though there were many _._ at all.), then flashback happened. Why did i stop aikido? i thought it was because i felt that i had no more interest =(. couldn’t remember the reason, anyway tt time my family was in quite a rack also, my father was going through second divorce (if i rmb correctly), i did not know much (still young and innocent), but the drifting apart between 2 parties at home was obvious, i acted as if nth happened. Oh well, then i had other classes like abacus, calligraphy, even found a public speaking cert which i found, it was a pri sch course, had a chance to be a narrator for some play (could rmb some of it), remembered i loved the applause the team had on stage even at that young age. ah man that is reminiscing very far back.. snapping back to reality now.
Ok, despite all that, i do not regret anything now coming to think of it. Those experiences be it good or bad, happy or sad, molded me into a person i am today. My experiences did not allow me to become the most intelligent, most talented person in the world. I should not even compare myself with my clever friends like Josh and Kenny who are undoubtedly more intelligent/talented, though sometimes it feels kinda inferior. I am happy however that i am one of the nicer people that my friends and family know, i am responsible, i am kind, i am a man of good values, with great belief in myself, an optimist, a possiblist. That’s what i have set out to become and have been and going to be if i am not there yet. The people i meet and have known me, the experiences, my environment, my school all mattered a lot to my growth. So for now, the time is to change, I am a person of good values but lack the knowledge and skills to progress further. Progress meaning making my latent potential exposed through action and trying my best in everything i do. Become more hardworking (been slacking so often), figure out what i really want to do and go for it, completion is what i need to advocate. Start and complete things. Be smarter, think more, influence others, help them. It’s all coming back!
Very honestly, I fear a lot even choosing to go for OIAP. The comfort zone is staying in Singapore and continue studying. I realise that our education system isn’t exactly the best and experiential learning is not really the key focus, so the choice to go overseas is obviously a better option. I fear because i have not worked before, I do not know what to expect, what kind of people to meet. Of course i will use my mind and attract things and people i want and like, but still there’s something called fate. Whatever it is, i gonna accept it as a learning experience. I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO GET OUT OF SINGAPORE! GO TO CHINA, ENJOY THE OLYMPICS, WORK WORK WORK MY ASS OFF AND LEARN LEARN LEARN ALL I CAN! BECOME A GLOBAL THINKER! I want to take hundred steps forward in my life, become more capable, become a great leader in the future. It starts now! The first cut is the deepest, the first step is the hardest. Well ifi believe i can i can! So for now, i gotta get my self prepared. It’s another phase in my life, starting to go out to work. Gonna read up, be more disciplined, complete what i started, be even more reliable and self reliant than i ever was. MOTIVATE MYSELF!!! FUEL THE PASSION!… argh, ok i am fumbling, shall stop here and start with work.
Thanks for reading!
The greatest mistake you can make in life is to continually be afraid you will make one.
Elbert Hubbard
With Love<3,
Kelvin
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At the Crossroads Yet Again….
Hmm Week 4 of School. Becoming better and better. School rox. Learn so much.
Every week i am looking forward to school.. woo hoo.. though i missed some lessons… boo hoo… some lectures only… but it’s ok, i know my stuff.
Would like to talk about my dear PSP. Been looking high and low for one, finally obtained one. The desire to get it was strong, i knew i couldn’t be wrong. Was at first deciding whether to get a PSP or a IPOD, decided to get a PSP, more benefits, IPOD can play music + videos, good quality, PSP can play games, music and videos, so the choice quite obvious. Other reasons include, i should play games to improve my thinking skills and it is cheaper than ipod. I was looking for it for 3 weeks or so online, the price din seem to dip any lower, so bought mine for about $350, a package coming with a memory stick which i needed really much in order to play “ahem” games as most people described it. Of course, i must be disciplined and not become a game freak, spending the whole day on it. Bad for my eyes and also takes away so much of my time which could be used for more productive activities.
Speaking of productivity, have not been really productive. I really feel like a frog in a well these few weeks. Have not been reading much, not using my brain much. We all know that our mind is like a muscle which needs to be exercised to grow and become stronger, or in this case, wiser, smarter, more intelligent. I haven been doing the necessaries like reading, exercising (stronger body to train a stronger mind), playing games, sleeping less and waking up early. Gonna plan something that allows me to work my body, mind and soul. Gonna sign up for pilates if possible and time permits, exercise like run, play bball or swim, read for at least 2 hours per day, read and listen to audios about accelerated learning, stay away from my com more (it’s like an essential item in my life now). For my studies, gotta get my homework done everyday. Having no energy is such a dreaded curse, i do have enough sleep, been eating right, but simply no energy because of the lack of exercise. so gotta exercise.
Now speaking of interesting things that happened in school (school is my life as it seems). Now we know the power of comedy, i would like to say, true comedy comes from pure innocence. I shall elaborate further by naming 2 characters (my friends). Kenny Houng(s) and Suhartono (so hard to know). Looking at these 2 names, u wouldn’t guess that they are jokers, neither will looking at their faces. But mix looking at their faces and listening to their speech, voila! you get a combo of the innocent joking duo. Kenny is classic. He has this nice, blur blur (so naturally), innocent face. Suhartono is stylish.He has this nice, blur blur (so naturally), innocent face. Well, if that’s similar enough, there are other funnier things that are. Their one-liner jokes can bring the room down (laughing, screaming, creaking, and… stomachache yoach!). No one would expect them to own the house man. From the “thick skin” joke dedicated to Fabian Lee to the “she was shooting me, i dodged it” and of course the stylo mylo “well, you know….~” by the so hard to know. Amazing Innocent Duo (AID). There you have it =). Meet them, greet them, laugh at them (i mean their jokes). (providing u guys free publicity, thank me !)
Leo club has been quite a slack time for me, though i am the VP. What the hell am i doing sometimes? gotta get my head into the Leo Club game. Do my best for this short period, for the club, as a BOD, as a friend to the members =). Btw, the Lions dinner was great, got pang sehed twice but at least glad to have Hong Yi go with me =).
Next, My Future. the focus is the next crossroad. It couldn’t have come at a better time. Choosing a year 3 specialization was not really a concern in year 1. But when i had to choose it, it was like based on my interest. I wanted to take Marketing Communication very much, love the interesting and exciting marketing industry as well as what people do to create wonderful communication of brands, from newsprint to advertisements to sales. But there was another option of OIAP (overseas industrial attachment programme). Go overseas, be attached to a company like an intern, work there for 6 months, learning from their staff and learning skills that pertain to the business industry. Places offered were mostly in China, there were hotels and marketing firms. The experience to do that was invaluable. It’s a once in a lifetime chance + it’s really great to get industry experience especially overseas and have a better CV and be prepared for the working industry in the future. Always better to start early than late. I am gonna choose OIAP as my first choice, gonna speak to my father about it and confirm with him, anyway i am sure he will support me, as he always has =). Gotta get pass the interview first, i will do my best, though i do not have any industry experience to show off or mention, i am sure my other capabilities in school (like in cca) will help me get through. I wanna get out of Singapore and see the world! So much to see in one life, grabbing this opportunity by the neck and going for it, dreams of going overseas is gonna materialise! Glad that my friends who are close to me in school also planning to do OIAP. Josh, Kenny, Tricia, Hong Yi, Daryl, Suhartono, hope we all get through and might even be able to work in the same company =).
The question for each man to settle is not what he would do if he had means, time, influence and educational advantages; the question is what he will do with the things he has. The moment a young man ceases to dream or to bemoan his lack of opportunities and resolutely looks his conditions in the face, and resolves to change them, he lays the corner-stone of a solid and honorable success.
Hamilton Wright Mabie
Ciao with Love,
Kelvin
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